Work has been so crazy lately I don't have time to think. In fact, i even broke out into tears last week becasue I was so stressed.

Mrs. M was gone Thursday and Friday last week, back for Monday, then off again for Tuesday-Friday. That's right. I'm playing teacher.

I have to say, its started off better than I would have thought, but I hate having to be the teacher instead of having her around. Things are just smoother.

This puts me into doubts. In my own classroom, when I'm a teacher, things are this hectic? I litterally couldn't do it another day last week, let alone be the teacher and be locked in for a year.

What if I'm not cut out to be a special education teacher? What if my dreams were just silly little ideas but wont' be able to handle it?


Staci said...

I'm sorry Brylie, having the patience to be a teacher is definitely something I feel is a rare ability; I'm so grateful for those who can do it. I think you're great and luckily you can get the practice/experience that you need. Hopefully things will get better for you!!

The Mowers said...

Brylie, I have never seen anyone love the kids they teach as much as you do. You can do this! I don't know how it is since I haven't talked to you for a while, but I'm sure it will be at least a little bit easier when it's your class and you can do things your way and make your own schedule for what works for you. Don't give up. Really, you will be great I promise.