Joining Blogs

A while back I started a blog to help motivate me to lose weight.
Then I was too embarrassed to actually share it with anyone.
So no one knew it existed.

Anyways, now that I'm a little more comfortable with where I am with my weight, I think I am going to just combine the two ideas and merge them onto here.

Here is the most recent post about my weight loss fun-ness:

So my goal came and went. I officially made it to 135 pounds and I can fit into a size four pant (at Old Navy). That was my goal!
I actually didn't fit into the size 4 until this week (ish) and it felt amazing to finally do so.

My only problem is once I hit 135 I kind of gave up on eating healthy. I still didn't eat AS much as before, but it still wasn't the best. I've gone up and down between 135-137. Which in all reality, is amazing!

Especially if you look at where I started. I never planned to actually say it anywhere... but I was at 160 pounds. [ew. I hate that everyone can see that.]

How did I even do that?

But I feel like I would like to lose just five more.

And lately, I've felt the urge to just go running or just go work out.
So tonight after my late class (9:45!!!) I wanted to go running.

Rob wouldn't go with and honestly, I was a little scared to go out running in the dark alone.
Plus I don't run. I did the elliptical... not for a while though.

[How did I fall out of the routine so quickly?!!?!]

Anyways... I ended up pulling up Just Dance videos on YouTube and following them.
I didn't want to play the actual game because Rob was in the room with the Xbox... and he isn't allowed to watch.

But I feel great after doing a few workouts and I'm ready to fight the last five pounds.

This summer will be a great opportunity because I have to pack a lunch everyday for my summer job and I will be pushing a wheelchair and carrying the kid around.

It will be good.

I can do it.

p.s. Why do I always have the urge to work out and get skinny late at night when its not possible to start... then the next day I'm too tired to really care to do anything?!
Geez Brylie. Get over it and want to do it all in the morning!

Another year gone

School is almost over, don't get me wrong, I'm super stoked for the summer.

But this is my last year in a school and I'm going to miss it dearly.
I've become closer to the girls I work with as well as grown as a person because of them.

I am so sad to have to leave it, but even staying at Canyon View wouldn't be the same.

Everyone from work (the girls) minus Kelli
It's been an amazing four years but I'm ready needing to move on.
I have been talking all at work how badly I just want it to be summer but now that it is really here I want to cry.

I didn't realize how sad I was until Thursday night. I was laying on the couch at Rob's and I almost started to cry.

Its time to move to the next chapter in my life but I don't know if I can actually do it.

I need to be a grown up. I need to get a real job, a real grown-up job.

This is the last week of me working at Canyon View Junior High school.

This is the last week of me being "Miss Brylie"... or affectionately called "Bryl" by students or one particular student.

This isn't fair.

Why can't I just stay being the young girl that never turns into a grown up.

But here I am, almost twenty-two years old and I am still just working a job that I got right out of high school.
No experience required.
I had no experience.

What if I end up being horrible at Early Intervention?
When I first learned about it I went crazy knowing that's what I wanted, but what if I'm wrong. What if I was crazy to take that route?

What if I get my degree and then I can't get a job... I don't know what else I can even get a job in with my degree (Behavioral Science -Family Studies emphasis in Development.)

Why is this so hard for me at this point?!
Why didn't I think this through that at this moment, I'm officially stranded.

I have to hope to get enough hours through Rise to cover my bum while in school as well as paying for my (NEW!) car.

What if I start going to more classes and completely fail at life and can't take it?

What if I have a mental breakdown right now just thinking about it?

Thursday is going to be a hard day for me. I just might end up crying in my bed all day wondering what I've done.


Hermana Pasquale

I've had a real hard time missing Brittney.. like bad.

I was walking around the Provo Temple with my mom and little brother when we were walking through all the missionaries that were sitting around. It hit me that Brittney MIGHT be there too.

Once I saw her I started shaking. I didn't know if she would get in trouble for seeing me or if girl missionaries are even allowed to hug.
So I played it off like I was taking a picture with my mom when she screamed and ran over.

It was the best day of my life. I just wanted to stay with her forever.
I hope she doesn't get in trouble that I saw her.  That would make me terribly sad!

I miss this lady. But she is going to be a great missionary!