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So... I love the pictures with Nature letters...
I changed my header.... now you can see it twice!
Maybe once it the weather stops being so angry I will go out and take my own.

I got a new collage picture frame for Christmas and hope to do something like this for the pictures inside.

Janet's Rap

Emily's Dance

Sorry This one is sideways.

and sorry Emily!

The first half I was taking pictures... and it took a while to be able to get my camera switched to video.

New Years Week 2010

Rob again had Thursday to Sunday off for New Years Eve and Day. I was excited to have him back!

Thursday I went over and we were watching lame TV. Why boys like to watch so much football is beyond me.
After Rob separated from Scott and TV he came in and was playing his dumb computer game Rappelz. (I HATE THAT GAME.)
I went out and watched the family play Skip Bo, because I came in late. Then we played the same game as last year called, Would You Rather? Its a lot of fun and I enjoy it a lot.
I recorded videos instead of taking pictures... those will all have to be in separate posts.

There is:
-Emily (Rob's sister-in-law) dancing to her own music.
-Janet "rapping".
-Stan smelling horrible smelling things.
-Jessica had to make the animal noises we called out... but I was running out of space on my memory card... so there isn't a video of her anymore.

We played games through midnight and then did a few fireworks outside.

The next day after I had been there for probably 30 minutes, Scott was yelling at Jess to get the door. It was like 5 minutes later and he still was so I finally just walked up and answered. It was their cousin John and his wife Rebecca. It was so fun to meet them.
For a while we watched more football.... and then we played some games.
The first one was Hillarium. You have to act out different things and try to match with other people.
After we played Partini... kind of like Cranium. That was fun too... but my team of Rob, Jessica, and me lost.

We then watched a lot more football and ate delicious food. They had ribs or something.... so my mom sent me with some enchiladas so I could actually eat. We then dicussed a lot of ways for me to each healthier.

My New Years Resolution is to start eating healthier. I have been gaining weight and all I ever eat is junk. Its ridiculous.
Once I get my snacking and eating to a better place, then I plan on starting to work in exercise.

I have such a hard time with this because after work I am usually exhausted and have no energy whatsoever to go work out. I think if I get more healthy food into my body then maybe I would have more energy........... hopefully.

Happy New Year everyone!

Christmas

Okay.. Okay.. I am behind again. There is no need to yell... or get angry.
I just need to find a time to sit down and do this stuff.


My first great present was the fact that I had all of Christmas break without my cousins in our house. It was so much more quiet and calm.... I don't know how I'll get back into the routine of them around again.
Okay.. So my real Christmas started out around 7:30 in the AM. We opened our family gifts and I loved everything I got. My dad gave me the impression that they didn't buy anything for me besides what I had purchased and they reimbursed me for. I ended up getting a lot more than I thought. My favorite present was from my mom. She spent weeks organizing our old photos and putting them in albums for all of us kids. I got 3 albums worth and was so excited to show everyone. I also got a new phone... and its about time! Its a touch screen with a keyboard. A-Ma-Zing! I love it.
Rob also got a new touch screen phone and we spent all of Christmas Eve setting them up so they would be ready for Christmas.
It was such an improvement over my old phone and it is probably my favorite phone ever.

After I opened presents with my family, I showered and headed over to Rob's house to do presents with his family at 10. I loved everything they got me and it was so fun to see their different Christmas traditions compared to my family. Instead of everyone just opening their own presents at their own pace... They hand each other the presents one by one and everyone watches. I ended up getting Rob a PlayStation 3... mostly for the Blu Ray player. I don't understand it, but he liked it. He got me a Cricut :) (I had to talk myself out of purchasing one many times... and he would hear my debates of whether or not to get it. So naturally, he got it for me.) He also got me a TON of smelly lotions and sprays... choosing his favorites for me. A gift card to get some much needed things.... and my favorite that we can do together (drum roll please.....) Lost, Season 5! After hours of present opening that was much more exciting that I have ever had... we all just went off on our own. Rob and I set up his new surround sound receiver and his PS3. Then I showed his family how the Cricut works and how awesome they are. The boys were the most impressed and even helped me figure out how to work it.

After all of that we had dinner... another thing I am not used to. I've never had a nice sit down dinner at Christmas like a Thanksgiving dinner. It was so much fun and I loved it. I had to head to Saratoga Springs after that to go to the Harris' family get together. Turns out I went all the way out just for socializing, and all the Christmas stuff would be the following Sunday. So I drove back to Rob's house and we all played games. I love playing games with their whole family, its so much fun! We played until probably 1:o'clock AM and then we all headed to bed. Because Scott and Emily were sleeping over, I convinced my parents to let me have a sleepover also!

The next day was full of games and excitement as well.

I probably gained 5 pounds each day because of all the snacks.

I loved that Rob had work off also from Thursday the 24th to Sunday the 27th. I spent so much time with his family that I saw his family more than mine.

When Monday came though... it was terrible to have him at work and I just wanted to have him home. Especially with the snow.

Finals and random thoughts

So finals are over and I am finally done with my classes. I am so excited to have a break! It is amazing not having to worry about class.
I'm not going to lie, my class schedule wasn't that bad. I never really had homework except stuff I could quickly do just before it was due on the weekends. But the break is really nice and I even got to go to the choir concert at my work for the first time in over a year.

Wow. A whole year at Canyon View. I cannot believe how much time flies and how much I love it. It does get difficult sometimes, even to the point where I want to cry. But I think that's why I love it so much. This is my first job that I've liked and didn't give up on after a couple of months. Its the first job that has pushed me to be a better person and more outgoing. Its forced me to get along with other people who are different. When I first started, I wouldn't have been caught dead dancing in front of people. Now I don't even care.
Working with these kids everyday, I believe I benefit more than the kids do from me.

Lately, I have been having a hard time dealing with what I am forced to face with. When my cousins first came to live with us, I wasn't thinking how it would affect me long term.

Now is my time to vent because if I don't here, I might drive Allex crazy.

I feel uncomfortable in my own home now. I know they have no control over being here, but it makes me sick everytime I see or hear one of them complaining about how they hate it here and its so awful. We know they don't want to be here but they don't have to rub it in our faces. We actually stepped up and took them. Why can't they just accept that and blame it on their mom and not us. We didn't force them here... she did.

Lately, I have had to just bite my tongue and not say anything to any of them. That means I am almost always silent in my own house. I absolutely hate it. I can't be free and let go when I come home from work. This has caused me to spend much more time at Rob's house. I love that I have a place to go and him and his family are so loving and they accept me and listen. They're great! But when I have to stay at home, I can't stand it. I know everyone is about making them comfortable, but its not fair that they can say and do whatever they want about us.... but if we say one negative thing in front of a certain someone, we (meaning me and my sisters) get in a lot of trouble.

The thing that drives me the most to insanity is the fact that no one asks about our family. Its always about "well how are the kids doing?" "they must be going through an awful time." "how are they holding up?"
I think people don't realize that our world was completely turned upside down when they moved in too. Yes, they lost their parents. But they're taking over mine and I don't get to talk to mine like I used to. They lost their house, I lost my house. They still feel comfortable enough in our house to run it and get their way with everything. I do NOT feel comfortable in my house around them.
I'm not saying that I have it just as bad and that they don't deserve any of the attention. I would just like a simple "Hey Brylie, how are you feeling?" or "How are things at home?"
I've noticed that ever since my uncle passed, his siblings and family have been around for the kids a lot. (I don't know how much they were around before, maybe its the same.) But even at the funeral, not a single one of them have spoken a single word to me. Not ONE word. I don't mean they have to have a huge in depth conversation with me. But even "hi" would be nice.

Last thing. My aunt was selfish and I still blame her for my uncle's death. But I am the one that everyone gets mad at because I don't want to spend time with her. I don't want to be with her. I don't understand why its so hard to comprehend my hatred towards her. Allex and Rikkell hate her too. But because I am the only one that voices my opinion or walks away from my aunt.... I have "anger issues". I am the one that should try to patch things up. PS. things will NEVER be the same.

It would make me so frustrated if I had the chance to vent it all out more.
Maybe things would be better if I moved out...


Anyways, now that I am done with that.
Rob and Rob's family are great... its almost Christmas and I have NO idea what to get him.
Lame.

Thanksgiving

I lack pictures so far... but hopefully will get copies shortly.



I started the day off at 12:00 pm, heading to Saratoga Springs with Allex to Grandma and Grandpa Harris' house.
It wasn't as chaotic as usual, but still was awkward.. I would say.
I haven't been for months... maybe a year even and everyone was sure to state that.

My grandpa, like always, asked how old I am now and then proceeded to tell me I will be able to get married in 4 years. Every time he has asked since I was like 16 he has always said 4 years.

I plan to get married on my own timing, not his though.

I stayed for a while, keeping close to Allex.

Around 1:30 I left to go back to Rob's house...
(Actually, I stopped at my house first and had a bowl of YUMMY muddy buddy cereal...)

He was playing his game for a while, so I started to make the rolls (our assignment) and he said he would change and come out to help.

Of course, like twenty minutes later..... after I was all done and the dough was in the bread maker, he came out of the shower. It was supposed to be a surprise (because he sure smells good after he showers) but he took too long and somewhat ruined it.

We then watched some TV while everyone was finishing their assignments.
Jessica and I decided it would be fun to make name tags..... mostly so we would get stuck sitting by their grandma.

They were so fun! While I made them, Jess cut out strips and feathers to make indian hats for everyone.

I was back in Rob's room when the bread maker beeped and when Jessica went to look inside... I hadn't snapped the container down hard enough (I pushed as hard as I could) and so it was still the exact same as I had put in.

Luckily everything else took a while to get ready and we made the rolls just in time for the prayer.

We ate around 6... which was the latest I have ever eaten Thanksgiving Dinner.

I had my nice little plate of mashed potatoes, a roll, and some HOMEMADE stuffing.
Rob had made me promise earlier in the week though that I would try everything at the table.

Stan piled on the sweet potatoes, I picked my small pieces of turkey, and then Rob ruined it all by pouring spoonfuls of gravy. I HATE gravy.

He ate quickly and dismissed himself from the table.
I DID try everything.... but didn't eat everything on my plate... The only new thing I liked was Stan's homemade stuffing.

We then watched some football and Rob was looking up ads for a new laptop he wants. We eventually all had pie and it was delicious.
My pie of choice? Chocolate Cheesecake. Yum.

I am so thankful for Rob and all he does for me. He means well when he gets me to eat new foods and pushes my limits.
I love him and his family to pieces.

My oh My

Its sure getting farther and farther apart from each post! I don't like it!

I've been spending my nights at Rob's house... most of the time doing homework while he is playing some silly little game. But I enjoy his presence and the occasional hand holding over the couch :)

A few days ago, we went out with a bunch of his friends for a surprise birthday party at Pirate Island... the new pizza joint in town. It was a cool set up and I enjoyed my food.... but Rob did NOT like his. I believe his exact words were "it tasted like the aftertaste of throw up." ew.

After we all ate dinner we headed to the birthday boy, Brett Bristow's house to have cake and ice cream. It was a delicious cake! Then we all watched the wonderful movie known as "Star Trek".
We had seen in at midnight when it came out but I had no memory of it when we watched it again.

I don't get the point of watching movies at midnight because I honestly, usually, forget them.

On to my next story! I went with Jessica, Amber, Alicia, and two other gals I didn't know to New Moon at midnight. I remembered it this time though.

It was a million times better than I expected and actually enjoyed it. I hated Twilight...... It should be remade. It was just plain awful and now it will never compare to its younger sisters in the saga.

Its now Thanksgiving break and I am enjoying not working for Wednesday (today), Thursday (Thanksgiving), Friday, Saturday, Sunday! AMAZING!
I am trying to convince myself to get out of bed, organize my room, clean out my car, eat a little snack, and then go work out at the rec center. I sure hope they are open today.

Maybe I will get you an update of how well I actually did of working out. Maybe.


This is my new goal: (again)
I need to work out. I eat so many ridiculous things... and never do any exercise to work them off.
I am slowly gaining more and more weight... but every time I take my work out clothes to work out after work.... I am dead tired and don't have any desire to do so.

Uggggggggggh.


Also, Christmas is coming up!
I have NO idea what I want. At all.
I would enjoy new clothes..
but after that... nothing! I have thought long and hard and I still cannot think of anything I need/want.
Besides Rob :). Spending my time with him would be wonderful and fulfill all my wishes.
ChEEsY.

Bean Museum

So today was a field trip to the Bean Museum. It was so much fun I cannot even tell you!

For a while we just walked around and looked at the animals and then we went to Rock Canyon Park.

We ate lunch and then Wade, our new cute 7th grader, wanted to roll down the hill. No one else would go with him so I did! It was so funny to watch him.

I love my new class and am so glad that they let me play with them each day.
They can make me happy at any moment and I don't know what I would do without them and their funny little selves.

Halloween weekend

So I just had to post! Halloween is so much fun with my class I cannot stand it! First period we did donuts on string.

Second period was prep so all the kids went out to classes, while Kalisha stayed in and we straightened her hair! It was so much fun to see. She definitely has African American hair:) In the end it was so thick and long everyone thought it was a wig!
Third period we did mummy wrap up with toilet paper. We then made treats for our movie after lunch.
Fourth period we watched Matilda since we just finished reading it with the class.
This is me and Kalisha with her beautiful hair. (I'm a nerd)
Miss Amanda, Miss Brylie :), Mrs. M (Kelli), and Mrs. Tricia all together in our costumes.

After work I realized my wallet wasn't in my purse and figured it would be in my car from the morning when I tore through my purse to find my phone. When I got out to my car it wasn't there so I called my mom at home to check and see if it was still on my bed. She kinda looked and told me it wasn't. I almost started to cry I was so scared. Finally when I got home and I got to look for myself I found it under my bed, half visible because it was covered by a shirt.

That night I went with the Masons to Chuck-a-rama and it was delicious. I just love it. When we got home Rob and I watched the 5th season of Lost on the computer since the new season starts soon and they don't have this one on DVD yet. Also we stayed up talking with his family for a long time. It was fun to joke around and just talk.

Saturday, actual Halloween, I woke up and got dressed and waited around for a while. I then went to Rob's and we all sat around for a while. Finally it was time to go trick or treating! Caden was evil Emperor Zerg, Kyler was Buzz Lightyear, and Jess was one of the green aliens. It was fun to go out and trick or treat with them and they were both so cute.

When we got home and they went to bed all the adults watched The Dollhouse Murders. It was pretty funny but Jessica was terrified.
We also got The Man Who Knew Too Much but waited until Sunday to watch it.

I sure love the Masons!